the souvenir

"you like horses? "

"yes but not to ride."

what is already broken

 is not unbreakable

what scares you

is not always unbearable 

dreamed of you as you are

 the nightmare i was avoiding 

skipped so many parts 

but now we are apart  

we won’t  go places

we won’t go deep

we won’t go together

we won’t go serenity

we won’t calm

we won’t 

_

we want?

do we want to or not to?

i do want

so i won’t stay.

"how  that Venice can be when you are alone"

"can't remember of anything different"

-she looks determined -

used to say that

'we don’t want to see life as it is

but as it is experienced '

that is what i loved bout us

the art in us

but

sometimes

what it is experienced 

is what you don't wanna see

and the reason i don't wanna see you

any 

fucking 

more.